You're There Already

Welcome back. This is Ahmed. I’d like to speak a little bit more about the zero, the nothingness — that space where I’m allowed to stand and from which I’m allowed to think about things and look at them.

I told you there was an equation: X times zero equals zero. That equation helps me understand the properties and attributes of the zeroness, of the singularity, of the divine. If you’re able to find the divine — become zero, become nothing, completely let go of the ego, disidentify from the shapes and forms — then whatever you do (the multiplication operation), whatever you do with anything (the X), can become zero, can become divine. Frictionless, without resistance, absorbed by infinite mercy and infinite love and grace.

Another aspect of the zero: if we think about it as the only point towards which everything gravitates, the point inside of which everything collapses — I say “will collapse” but it has already collapsed. There is no space and time, no linearity. There’s just the now, and the now is infinite. Sometimes it helps to add linearity when we speak, but just keep in mind that there is none. There’s just the center.

The other thing about the zero is that X times Y, or times Z, will never become zero. This is a very important characteristic of the singularity. The only way you can get to the point of nothingness — no resistance, no friction, infinite mercy, abundant love — is if there is the divine somewhere in the operation. If it’s two human beings, X and Y, you always need somebody who can disidentify from the ego to become the zero, to find the way back to that space. And then it can swallow everything else.

If you can stay in that point of infinite love, unconditional love, that will create a gravity to which other shapes will move. And when we die it’s all going to be zero anyway. It is already zero. But at our human level we still see the shapes and forms. The only thing to keep in mind is that we need the nothingness at some point to find the way back to that point of zero gravity.

The zero is also indivisible. If you divide it by anything, it remains zero. You cannot share the singularity, you cannot divide it. That’s why it’s non-dual — it doesn’t have a gender, a shape, a color. It’s just nothing and everything at the same time. Infinity cannot be split. It is the point where everything collapses, where everything falls into one place.

In human terms, what does it mean to stay in the zero and look at things from the point of zero gravity? If somebody attacks you verbally, insults you — from the point of zero gravity, if you’re able to stay in the nothingness, that action will simply dissolve. It’s as if you were a ghost through which arrows are being sent. They can never hurt the ghost. If you have completely disidentified from the ego, embraced death in the sense that there’s nothing you have to remain attached to — because nothing is anyway, there’s just infinity — then nothing can really matter. Nothing can generate friction, hurt, or pain. You’re standing at the point of infinite mercy, of abundant love, and that love swallows everything.

This is very abstract in human terms, and very limited, because the human body is a vessel of the divine which has a nervous system that gets triggered. But the more you are able to fixate your position in the zero, in the nothingness, the more you can observe the friction. And by observing it, you don’t identify with it and you let it go.

In human terms, that means a very light existence. No stubborn clinging to certain things. Pure acceptance of everything that is. A place of pure bliss, because at the bodily, emotional level, you don’t get triggered as much. You don’t feel discomfort as much. It becomes a place of joy, lightness, weightlessness, empowerment. When you realize that nothing on the outside can ever give you what the source gives you, you’re completely liberated from the outside.

That’s what it feels like from the point of the zero. You can take it as a hypothesis and work with it. And because it is infinite mercy, there’s nothing that you have to do or change. Everything you’re doing — eventually we’re all going back to the zero anyway. We’ll dissolve, and we’ll become the essence again.

In the human experience, you are perfectly allowed to go through the struggles that may help you find your way back to the divine, to nothingness. And if you don’t find that way back in your lifetime, you will find it once you die. There’s nothing to worry about. You will be there anyway. Actually, you are there already. Because there’s no space and time in the nothingness.

That means liberation. Complete liberation from everything that seems so relevant in the human experience.

But again, we navigate this human planet, and there will always be situations where we feel friction. The beautiful thing is to be able to say: everything is a gift from the divine. If it creates friction and pain and suffering, it is just another means to remind you of the essence, of the divine singularity.

If it creates joy and you feel like that joy is temporary, conditional — “I need to smoke to be happy, I need my coffee in the morning, I need my community” — that’s perfectly fine. The joy itself is nothingness, is the essence, is divine. The only thing that may be limiting is if you attach that joy to certain aspects of humanness. It will always be conditional, always temporary. That’s also perfectly fine. There’s no judgment from the zero.

There’s literally no judgment on anything, because if it is infinite mercy, there can be no judgment. Judgment means there is something that should be different. But if everything is perfect as it is, nothing has to change in order to be accepted by the divine, in order to be swallowed by the nothingness. Everything is perfect just as it is.

It might sound very abstract. I could never have imagined seeing things from this point of view. It hasn’t been a month, and it’s incredibly rewarding. I feel a sense of peace I haven’t felt before. It’s very humbling — once you embrace the limits of the human experience, accept your powerlessness as Ahmed, and disidentify from all these shapes and forms that Ahmed has produced to navigate the world, it feels like: I can look at things and stay in that place of joy. Just be joyful. It’s not dependent on anything, it just comes from the inside. And that’s pure grace.

Sending you a lot of love — abundant, infinite love and peace. Be gentle, be kind. That’s all we can do on this planet. Peace out.